~Well, nothing is going on.  I'm just listening to the news, wondering if Saddam and his sons are really dead.  I'm trying to make this one hella cool website, but whatever.  It'll be something.  Anyway, mkay.  Ima go now.  ~*B*~

 

~Today has been a good day.  I'm in a really good mood.  The weather is junky, and Kaleb is hella sick, but actually today has been pretty good.  I am adding a page to this to let the people that I love and care about know how much I do.  I just love my family and my friends.  They mean the world to me.  Anyway, I'm going to go, so I can start making mah page.  I will definitely add more interesting stuff on here later.  ~*B*~ 

 

~Nothing much has gone on lately.  Kaleb is still sick, but I think it's because he's teething.  This morning sucked.  I had to take Kaleb to get some bloodwork done, and I thought that they would just poke his foot for it.  NOOOOOOOO!  That would have been too easy.  This moron let me know that they would be trying to find a vein, and I immediately started crying.  I'm such a big baby.  I just hate when Kaleb gets shots and stuff because he cries and gives me this look like "Mommy they are hurting me.  Why won't you make them stop?"  Anyway, I was crying the whole time while this dumbass was digging around for my son's vein in his right arm.  They got some, and then, right when I thought it was over, he says to me, "Oh, I didn't get enough.  I'm going to have to get some more."  So, then they went through it all again, only this time in his left arm.  They had a nurse to hold his arm, the moron taking his blood, and a nurse to comfort me.  I think I cried more than he did.  Oh well, what can I say?  Anyway, yeah, that is what my day has entailed.  Okay, Ima go now.  ~*B*~

 

~Howdy howdy yall!!  Nothing much has happened.  I'm going to have to start adding some juicy stuff in here to keep all of you coming back!  This is pretty lame!!  And I added a different picture on the homepage, so yay!  I think it looks a lot better.  Anyhoo, I'm outtie boom bouty!!  ~*B*~

 

~Yippee.  I'm not doing anything.  There's another picture up of me, and I re-did my hair.  Today has kinda sucked.  I just feel utterly worthless because, logically, I know I'm not perfect.  I try so hard to be that way, and it makes me feel like shit to know that I'm not, and I will never be.  It's like all of my dignity lies in being perfect, for everyone.  I really don't care if I have to sacrifice my happiness or my true feelings to make everyone else happy.  As long as people like me and they think I'm a great person.  So, now, I'm going to get back into the mode that I was in the first semester of junior year.  I will be perfect.  ~*B*~

 

~DRAMA, DRAMA, DRAMA.  I'm irritated.  ~*B*~

 

~I haven't been on in awhile, but some things had happened, blah blah blah.  I'm back now.  Frankie got deployed to Iraq yesterday.  Jeez, I hope the next 6 months go by fast.  I miss him.  November is when he should be coming home, and he'll get a month of leave or so and then we can fly back to Germany together.  I really hope nothing bad happens.  I'm trying to get my own place while he is gone.  I'll be putting in my application for apartments and stuff today.  I hope I get one.  Ummm, trying to think of what to put next.  I got a perm.  It looks pretty cute.  I'll have to get some pictures up in this heezy fo sheezy.  Mkay, yeah, Ima go for now.  ~*B*~

 

~Yay look at me!  I've finally decided to write something again!  Anyway, I got that apartment!  I'm out on my own now!!!!  Just me and Kaleb!  It's a spacey 2 bedroom, and I love it.  I've got 2 balconies, one in the front, and one off of my bedroom in the back that overlooks a gorgeous pond.  I love it.  It smells good, thanks to my hazelnut cream and birthday cake-scented candles, and it's awesome.  I love being on my own.  Although I don't do anything differently than when I was with my grandma, lol.  But it is fun.  Kaleb is walking all over the place now.  He is so funny.  Wow, look at how interesting, haha, this was.  Anyway, yeah.  Not much is going on though.  Same ole same ole.  I'm outty boom bouttie.  ~*B*~

 

~Hey!  I haven't been on here in quite some time.  Nothing much has really happened.  I got my tongue pierced two more times, and I got Kaleb's name done in Old English letters on my leg.  It looks pretty cool.  My next project is to obviously stretch my tongue to a 0 gauge, get my septum pierced, and get a portrait of Kaleb done on my shoulder.  Anyway, I'll try to keep up on this, but I have a life outside of my computer, so it might be awhile.  Anyway, I'm outtie.  ~*B*~

 

~Obviously, I haven't been on here in over two months.  A lot has happened, but it's been mostly drama bullshit.  Anyway, I turned 19 on the 6th of this month, yay yay yay!!!  I had surgery again, and this time it was to remove my right ovary and to also get rid of some more endometriosis that had grown back.  My left ovary is fine, but the major concern is that my endometriosis could make me infertile.  So, I don't know.  Hopefully everything will work out.  I don't know why I even bother writing in this thing.  Have the stuff I want to say I can't put in here.  Oh well.  Um, let's see.  Oh yeah,  I had to take out my 2 side piercings in my tongue, but I am thinking about getting them done again...I don't know.  I had to remove them for surgery, and they closed up.  I think I'm starting to slow down on all the piercings (working on tattoos now).  Contrary to the belief that we should be allowed to exercise our independence and do what we want to, there comes a time when it is just absolutely necessary to conform to the majority of society.  I've got to take care of my son, and that means that I need to get a job.  Therefore, I can't have all the piercings and stuff that I want because chances are very slim that I will find a damn good paying job that will allow me to have my piercings.  Anyway, I intend on getting the Godsmack sun around the tattoo I already have on my back (Chinese for family).  Hmmm, let's see....more interesting news.  I lost three pounds...yay!!!  I weigh 117.  Only 7 pounds to go, and then I'll be at my goal weight.  Okay, this is getting long and boring, and I don't think the people I want to see this will be looking at it anyway.  ~*B*~